What If?

I've been writing here a lot lately but I feel that right now it's the only way to keep myself sane.  It's pretty lonely at night, I think that's making it really hard to sleep and the silence has been getting to me.

Lately I've been thinking about the people I've met over the years, and it's only been because I  made it on to the JET program.  I met awesome people, but I wonder what it would have been like if I had made different choices.  I'm not saying I made the wrong choice, but rather, what kind of people would I have met if I had gone to, say, China, or France, or wherever else.  What kind of people would I have met then?  What would my life be like now?  What would my life be like if I never came to Japan?  Would I be a nurse by now?  Would I have found my passion and opened my own business by now?  It's interesting to think about even though it's impossible to really speculate about the different people I would have met.  Overall I'm happy with the people I've met here.

It's going to be so easy, yet so hard, to finally go back home.

若しも【もしも】 (moshimo) if